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Sunday, February 24, 2008

well it is really hard and uncertain how the end will be.
If only i could predict it.
But if it is predicted....
will i want to change it? or maybe carry on with it?
obviously everyone will choose the best they want the ending to be.
However life is never that simple.

Having a talk with my friend yesterday.
Talking those memories i had before.
At first was talking about him,yet ge back to me.
Yes memories is certain beautiful and nice
But
It do have it sad and dark side after it is over can only be play like a soundless film in your mind.
Yes fireworks he do remind me that what i said was really true. The best example
Hot and Bright glow of sparks in the dark sky in the night.
The center of attention that you can focus on.
Putting everything aside without care to look at the cloud,moon and stars by the side.
It is just a short second the colourful of the fireworks give a short passion to brighten and warm
the dark cold night.
It is so beautiful that no one can ever forget that easily.
Memories......

Yeah somehow it is really hard to forget it that easily.
There is so much doubts.
So much question.
Don't even know the answer even till now.
Thought it could be able to put it away.
It never really go away that easy.
Always wanted to know the truth
yet never want to ask.
It make me realise what am i really afraid of?
yeah you were right.
Maybe waiting for someone to do the first move.
So that right now will be the way wanted it to be.
never really thought of that before.
How perfect wanted it to be yet make this small little mistake.
But why can't be direct abit?
Why can't just say it directly?
Why can't say what do you really want?!
there is so much so much so much......

Have you ever being true?
Really mean what you say?
One great stupid fool actually believe it.
High hopes given for that fool to believe you all this while.
Even after so much things happen that fool still believe it is real.
Given up everything.
told that fool you always be there to support the choice.
Ended up with nothing....totally nothing...
thinking everything is over, yet came back again but fool don't know anything at all
telling the whole world not to say
after knowing...fool can only act as a fool to face the whole world again...face you....
miserable...failure....
yet act nothing happen...
till it end then you tell the fool that things already happen had ended while you didn't even told that had ever started.

Yea...easy for you to do anything yet have you ever thought how FCUKED UP it feel?
How is the life each day passes?
What might be thinking inside?
Stupid yet not blind or deaf.
If want to be gone just go!
what for doing all this come and go thing?
What do you really want?!
always an half way answer and it just ended right there.
After being gone....
yet come back again!
and gone again.......................
If really want it gone......can please go away for good?
If you don't want to stay....just go.....
Don't come and go...
Make up your mind!
cause.....
the....
feeling...
is....
FCUKED UP......

really need to know.....
can you say it?

JJ wasted his time at 7:45 AM