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Monday, April 14, 2008

well this month suppose to be happy!
yea do have happy moment!
but unhappy one too!
like this month all suddenly come to me at one time?
i seriously cant cope well with stress!
just go as the flow my what i think for that instant!
maybe that's my bad point!

well on the sat was really happy!
shockingly my colleague order a cake for me!
and of cause im still gonna quit!!!
well finally met people in society are all evil!!!!!
you cant tell by it at first!!
damn!
but lucky do have good one! and it is few!!!
well tml must quit my job!!die die must!

when to my new school today ite clementi!
well didnt really enjoy it!
althought in my mouth i keep talk about no pretty girls dont want study
but in my heart i felt the feeling is not there!
classmate are all so anti!
all weird weird!
well do know a person today.
but like the topic talk tgt not suit!
the senior suppose to make the orientation was total lousy!
not organize at all and keep waste alot of time!
well really cant tahan half way so when home!
well after that some come my house mahjong again!

i donno!
maybe going army if i really cant fit it in!
as...i shld think for far if i really dont wanna study or do wat i like wat for i waste the time?
and my mummy gonna pay for me to waste it?
i should be able to think now.
what i really want!
i cant just keep running from it
like i always do.
follow the flow of what my heart thing.
If possible maybe i try some private school if they can manage to squeeze me in to a intake of april!

well i should do things i want!
yea mummy is right!
i will never deny that!

why everything seem to go wrong at this moment?
well i cant control my feelings.
knowing that it will be hurtful again.
yet im still willing to risk it again.
why cant things just go away as it suppose to be?
yet make a turn back and make me in a lost again.
make me fear and start everything again.
will it be true this time?
i dont want to waste my time again.
being like a fool.
a fool to play with.
a fool to being so serious over it.
im really serious but y cant you.
make me feel it.
make me want it.
yet each and everything till the moment.
just vanish away.
till a long time then come back.
what is up with you?
cant humans be straightforward abit?
just say it out?
just make it clear?
just be open about it?
keep me wonder all the time.
make me suffer so much.
how much have i got away yet get back to sqaure 1 again.
why must it be like this?
Dear God.
why are you fooling me?
make me hurt so badly.
yet fated to be again.
after my so many attempt of runing away from it.
making me peace for quite sometime.
yet all get back to me again.
why?why?why?
must it be agian...........

JJ wasted his time at 8:58 AM